Courage

Sometimes you realize many things when you take a step back. Sometimes you realize things that you were too ashamed to even admit to yourself.

I know what i want to do, but i lack the courage to get it done.

Among many things, i'd like to cut my hair short. Maybe when i find the courage to do that, i'll find the courage to do the others.

Courage makes or breaks. Courage will decide what will be done.

Cold As You - Taylor Swift

You have a way of coming easily to me
And when you take, you take the very best of me
So I start a fight cause I need to feel something
And you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray
And I stood there loving you and wished them all away
And you come away with a great little story
Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you

You never did give a damn thing honey but I cried, cried for you
And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you

...

And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you

LOL

Was mindlessly listening to this song while working and burst out laughing when i heard the chorus. Fucking annoying.

you used to be so pretty
but now you're just tragic
believe in something

you're full of horseshit

New Beginnings

The end of the semester had arrived and it marks a new beginning for me. Holidays? Not so much. Going to intern at Asylum doing PR for Fred Perry among other things Chris has (Chocolate Research Facility and what nots). Am excited to see the new office nonetheless! Finally after 5 years, they are moving. I'm glad i spent a good ol' 2 years at the shop. It's rustic and the walls are coming apart but it was where 'home' was. Well, at least home number 2 for me for the most part.

All work and no play makes Trixie a very dull girl. I definitely won't let work get in my way of meeting the girls, getting a couple of TGIF drinks and suppers! Hopefully it won't consume me. Work hard but always play harder.

One more year in NUS and i feel nostalgic already. Can't wait to get my ass out of that school and get going on my own thing. Plans are in place but money and time are barriers, as always.

Friday: Meet girls for good ol' dinner and then i wonder what's next...

Till then!

Kapok Hong Kong amongst other things

Just checked in with Kapok and asked them for pictures for the display. HERE YOU GO PEOPLE! Uber excited and hope it'll take off there. New items are also stocked at Antipodean. Scroll down for them! :)

Next couple of weeks will be interning @ Asylum doing some PR work with Cheryl. Going to be super busy because this 2 weeks are also the last weeks of school. Have to take this long weekend to catch up with some work.

CAN'T WAIT for my exams to finish and then i'll continue interning @ Asylum till i end my holidays in August. Seems like there isn't going to be a break other than the weekends for this long semester break but i guess it's all worth it. At least i am moving forward and finding out for myself what it'll be like working.

Asylum Shop is closing this April 30th. It hasn't hit me yet but i know it will. Working there in retail for a good 2 years plus was a good ride. Met many awesome people and made some good friends but i can't be a SA forever. Just like i won't be a student forever. My schooling days are coming to an end and days aren't so bleak yet. MUG ON!

Career moves

Somehow, i was blessed with jobs since i was 15. I never really had to go through a hard time looking for one and i usually end up making valuable friendships though the stint. This is what i am truly grateful for, to any higher forces up there who has been helping me thus far. I've worked in F&B, banking/admin, IT fairs, retail and even starting my own brand, but despite the variety of working experiences, i have yet to try what i am about to in the future: PR/Marketing/Writing

Narrowing down the choices, i have 2 routes to go from here. First is an internship with Asylum. I do hope i get it because it's always better to learn from people you are familiar with, and those whom you can consider to be veterans of the industry. Nonetheless, if i don't get it, i can always try to ask for referrals and recommendations but threading on unknown ground is always less-confortable.

The next choice i have is simply to further expand my brand. Coming July, it'll be our 1st year anniversary and yes i admit, i do need time to get things done and create some concrete plans. I really don't want to mess it up.

Decisions decisions!!!!

Study playlist

Vote - Submarines

Metal Fingers - Electric President

There Are Some Remedies Worst Than The Disease - This Will Destroy You

I Believe In You Victory - This Will Destroy You

Tricycle - PSAPP

Lang - Haruka Nakamura

Sign - Haruka Nakamura

Heimat - Hauschka

Study playlist

New Directions

Well, going to have new directions for my jewellery line. 1st yr anni is coming. NEED NEW SHIT. These large flower items are just my inspiration for more to come. Hint if you love flowers, tune in to us!

www.byinviteonly.info

Updates on brand:

A store in hong kong just contacted us and wanted to carry our items on their shop. I shall not say too much about it until i have officially shipped them out but i'm damn excited! It's not like a million dollar business but yes, it is a great step to what i want to do in the future. Another step to not working for anyone but myself!

We're not going to stock @ Blackmarket and Booksactually so for now, Antipodean and Asylum's the way to go. We might be opening an online store to stock items that are more unique or customizable. Unlike in shop spaces, what you see is what you can buy. Probably the online store will be stocking items that gives our customers room to choose more variations of one particular design. And of course, they are less likely to run out of stock because we can always make more (well not over 50 pieces of course)

Updates on self:

GOING TO BALI and PHUKET during the semester break! HOORAY! Most extravagant traveling in 3 months i dare say. I think i won't be going anywhere in December. Or am i? Lol... I kinda think the girls are going to have more traveling ideas.

Recess week now. Catching up with assignments, readings and a little bit of studying. I can't say i am on par with anything now. I feel like the tortoise in the race with the rabbit except that probably i won't win. :X

UUONN's office warming next friday then zouk. I always say this but next week is LAST ZOUK NIGHT! Have to concentrate on catching up! We'll see if it really happens.

VLong-delayed post about our Bintan trip

Good Seafood/ Blasting winds/ good company/ Great sun/ No rain/ Smelly money/Ulu downtown/ Cheeky Taxi Driver

NEXT -> PHUKET AUGUST 2010

Everyday, orange juice and 'Crazy pipe" from 7-11. Gawd i seriously need better snacks!

Skipalong - Lenka

So tired of feeling blue.
such a heavy weight on you.
So shake it off and make your way
to somewhere different
Oh no now you’re leaving me
oh what will you do all alone
in the big bad world?
Im not worried, no.

Cause you’re gonna skip along,
Quite merrily, baby.
you’re gonna revel in hating
what’s goin' on
And you’re like a sugar bomb
and no harm will come,
no harm will come if you
just skip along.

Acting oblivious.
Comes natural to us.
Keep smiling knowing all the while
the world will fall apart

Cause i'm gonna skip along,
Quite merrily, baby.
i'm gonna revel in hating
what’s goin' on
And i'm like a sugar bomb
and no harm will come,
no harm will come if I just skip along

Wouldn't it be lovely to be home, home
safe and sound with no one round
to bring us down
but that's so far away.

No harm will come if we just skip along.

Doubt

Doubt can be as powerful, it makes people shift from choice to choice because they cannot decide what they want. Doubt can be poison because it makes you waver in your decisions. Make you question yourself if what you are doing is the correct choice. I doubt and question myself till the point i start rationalizing. Deciding to do something is hard, especially when you are scared of what's to come. At the end of the day, it is a battle between the heart and the mind. The heart wants what the mind rationalized it to be bad. The heart wants although the mind specifically says no. The heart wants what it wants.

So should one follow thy heart or thy mind. That's the question.